i am afraid of the time i'll miss you

If I could write my thoughts in emails or cards to give you confidence and strength to carry on each day and if I could just send what's inside my heart into a package to comfort you through the cold night, I definitely would. It is just that I do not know if it would be of help because I do not know if it would mean something to you as it is special to me. Sometimes in great desperation I hope I am one of the people you've been with, the same people who made you wanna stay here. Sometimes I wonder of the things that currently make you busy. Sometimes I really want to know if you are okay.

Many times I just feel helpless.